renunciation of faith: the renunciation
of a religious or political belief or allegiance[14th century. Via French from, ultimately, Greek apostasies,
literally “standing away,”
from histanai “to stand”
]
it’s the
same sad scene we see every day
you
suckling orphan babies
&
then making them pay
some are
born addicted
to mom’s
apple pie
others are just
born
crucified
a
million starving contestants from the institution
must
learn the art of temple prostitution
reality
shows
only our
real
destitution
waging
our life on those
who
can’t really care
clawing
american
idol
breasts
laid
pathetically
bare
you
pretend to be Big Mommy
but baby
knows best
you’re
like a sky drawn in pencil
more
like a greedy
black
hole
than
a slice
of
ginger-
bread
threatening
to withholdforever
the
simple pleasures you hid
making
us believe in
whatever
all
the
violence
you
did
you
delight in the spanking
the
discipline
&
breaking in
your
captive phalange
rejected
army of
kids
so your
towers on fire
whadda
you expect me to do?
i tried to
put out one CON-flag-raisin’
but then
there was two
how
strange are your values
you
still haven’t a clue
you
supplied the motive
&
the matches
even
provided the tools
hearts
burst in your wallet
and it’s
undeniably true
the only
gain from this war
always
comes back to you
as fire
drips from our hair
our
fingers turn blue
it’s an
endless mad cycle
circa
1492
you
enslaved us with warlords
keen
masters of despair
their
vampire necks so
wasted
tasteless
&
bare
gave us
nothing real zero
no prices
to compare
a
phantom king reappearing
to a
clown who’s not there
you
confused the attorneys, cannoned a christ
fought
to remove distance between wrong & right
created
gospels torn from a history of pain
crossbows
& jawbones
lurid
fables of witchcraft
heretics
hawking
holy
hemp
&
wolf bane
you
called in the chaos
darkMadonna on a train
then
offered up the nails
to an
unwitting Magdalene
you
tried to make me drink hemlock
flushed
thru a cracked rusty grail
forced
me to wash in gods blood
from a
bottomless pail
doomed
to repeat
&
forever unveil
black
burning crosses
ridden
straight out of hell
all i
perceive has never been free
a
simulated landscape
rising
high above molten sea
steam
noiselessly churning
the
myths of equality
memories
born on rejection
&
disharmony
you have
unerringly learned how
to fuck
the world soul
&
somehow in that dumpster
of a
heart you always know
she’ll
dust herself off
then
come back for some more
we have
so much in common—
just
like me she’s
your whore
taken in
the new roman senate
or on a
cold bathroom floor
if there
really was a god
she or
he might intervene
such a deus
ex machina
would
steal
every
scene
just for
once play the good guy
try to
even the score
now
there’s a nice god
we all
could adore
but as
it stands now
yes,
we’ve seen it all before
no one
shows us the exit
or even
draws a
front
door
the
curtain explodes & the stage is on fire
the
price of admission can’t get any higher
i will
rush to the flames
like a babe in its arms
showing
no fear
no signs
of alarm
finally
completing this auto-da-fé of the blest
i’ll be
free from this trial & its senseless inquest
You're not a stranger to me
And you are something to see
You don't even know how to please
You say a lot but you're unaware how to leave
My darling lives in a world that is not mine
An old child misunderstood out of time
Timeless is the creature who is wise
And timeless is the prisoner in disguise
Oh who is the beauty who the beast
Would you die of grieving when I leave
Two children too blind to see
I would fall in your shadow I believe
My love is a man who's not been tamed
My love lives in a world of false pleasure and pain
We come from different worlds, we are the same, my love
I never doubted your beauty I've changed
I never doubted your beauty I’ve changed
Changed…
Who is the beauty
Where is my beast (my love)
There is no beauty
Without my beast (my love)
Who is the beauty
Who my love…?
Oh la bête, la bête
Where is my beast?
My beauty my beauty
My beautiful beautiful beautiful
Beautiful beast
Little jimmy’s gone way out of the back streets
Out of the window, into the falling rain,
And he’s right on time, right on time
That’s why broken arrow waved his finger
Down the road so dark and narrow
In the evening just before the sunday sixbells chime
And way out on the
highway
All the dogs are barkin’ way down below
And you wander away from your hillside retreated view
Went to wanderin’ nordhbridge way out on the railroad
Together all the tipping trucks will unload
All the scrapbooks built together stuck with glue
And I’ll stand beside you, beside you
Oh child, to never wonder why
To never, never, never, never wonder why at all
To never, never, never, never wonder why
It’s gotta be, it has to be
Across the crystal pavements
Way across the country where the hillside mountains glide
The dynamo of your smile caressed the
Barefoot virgin child
To wander past your
window in the nighttime cross the floor
Crying as ecstasy surrounds you
This time it’s really
found you
Through the night air your proud time is open
Go well on your merry way
against the pointed
idle breeze
Past the footlights of the brazen silence easy
In the night you cry and you want spirits to tell you
Everything’s alright
Go ahead and do it one more time baby
You’re satisfied I guess, you’re way up and the sky comes down
Kaleidoscope
Open and just hold the lantern in the doorway,
For the freedom of it.
And you take the night air through your nostrils
And you breathe in,
you breathe out, you breathe in,
You breathe out, you
breathe in, you breathe out
And you breathe just like that, just like that
How high does it get you when it gets you high
You may not know how high it’s got you until you turn around
And I’ll point a finger at you, point a finger at you
You say which way, which way
That’s alright, we’ve gotten hip to it
Goin’ to do it right this time
Beside you
Beside you, beside you
To never wonder why
To never, never, never, never wonder why at all
Never never never never wonder why at all, Oh Child.
There's nowhere to run now, there's no place to go
The hunt is cast and ready
Still farther I journeyed through the hills and the valleys
Until upon the verge of despair I sat and rested
And there did pass a princely knight pursued by a lady
And this she did say:
"Oh may I ask you kind sir where you are going?
And pray tell unto me sir why you do hurry
Strange that I should meet you here, come sit by me.
"I have here a magic horn to deliver
And one drop from this silver and gold horn I hold, sir
Shall prove all to be false, lovers beware!"
"The gift that you bear for your brother the king
I gladly would carry to the banquet this even'
What fair sport this would be for the maidens at court."
Wearily I crossed the stream to the castle
Where I found shelter from the cold wintry wind
And food did I have and plenty
But the Lord and Lady seemed so sad
For these words they did say unto each other:
"My good lord, all off to war in thy armor
Leaving me here alone to weep and to worry
Take care lest misadventure
Shall overcome thy kindly heart
My good lord, all off to war in thy armor."
"My lady, you have no need for to worry
I'll return victorious and true unto thee
Take care, lest misadventure
Shall stain your heart and lead to woe
My fair lady you have no need for to worry."
While underneath the spreading oak a knight with white device
Upon a shield of black, and deep in grief and sorrow sings
His unrequited love
"Young noblewoman riding by, pray tell me have you seen
Queen Azelda the fairest maid, in company she rides
For I swear to have revenge."
A thousand days have come and passed, the Lord returns this night
The victor from the bloody wars proven his fearsome might
As ever he would claim
But fate has played its wanton game, the circle come full turn
The magic horn has done its work, cried "Falseness is found out!"
The sorrowed quest is over.
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Doug Johnsonnoted:
I found the following explanation of the The
Hunting Song from D. Payne's email very enlightening:
As I understand from the
LP jacket, the song was based on the story of the journey of the magic horn
prepared by Morgan le Fay, King Arthur's sorceress half-sister. The horn could
not be drunk from by an adulteress without spilling wine therefrom. She sent
one of her knights with the horn to Camelot where she hoped to lay a trap for
Queen Guinnevere (cheating with Sir Lancelot), but the horn was side-tracked by
Sir Lamarok to King Mark's Cornish court where it was drunk from by Queen
Isolde (who had been two-timing with Sir Tristram) and all the other ladies at
court (few passed the test). The Book of Sir Tristram of Lyoness in Le Morte
d'Arthur has the tale. Knights of the Round Table kind of stuff. Fake
traditional, but effective.Also,
the song is hard to figure out because the values of courtly love and martial
behavior have been suppressed by cultural changes in the last 40 years. People
tend to divorce rather than kill adulterers.
The Beast
i unchained The Beast from His dark astral grave
there was no one else to blame
it was my own fate
served up on my own plate
reflecting my own distorting
faceless pain
He said, you can keep all the treasures of Castle Ameleth
if you just bow down to Me
I will give you armor made of midnight steel
that will make you strong but never free
teach you to think & never feel
just worship Me
embrace My Will
I Am, I Am
the master power of illusion
I Am
your soul
destiny
He said,
you might just as well cave in
I’ve seen you locked inside your
brain
ever since you were ten
put that stain upon your
forehead
blood hath sealed the bargain
by the power of illusion
& your very own special
brand of loneliness
& sin
i told Him to leave me alone
and The Clown Prince Harlot of Ameleth
vanished then—
but before disappearing,
he smirked His silly billy-goat-grin
you know sucker I’ll be seeing you again
i know where He’s hiding
near the shadows of my art
just below the radar
underneath the skin
waiting for the time when
He can tear the whole wide world apart
this stupid Beast
who hath no heart
no love/attraction
no soul
within
just
the demented power of delusion &
loneliness
&
sin
JEFarrow
Year of OurSELF 2007
grace slick
you gotta hand it to grace slick
she had the balls to groove
scorning taboos
breaking the rules
singing out to society
a triumphant
FUCK YOU
meanwhile outside The Fillmore
in the hard knocks of school
we pre-gothic kids lined up 2x2
shelling out to see our goddess of cool
wishing we could learn how
to bite the hand that fed us
& get paid
for it too!
JEFarrow
Year of
OurSELF 2007
SOMETHING
TO BELIEVE IN
Everybody's
rushing around,
Trying to keep a hold
On some piece of mind
All the time
And somebody's lookin' around
Tryin' to find
Something to believe in
To believe in
All the things they promised
They're always lies
Chorus
Well it's something
Oh it's something to believe in
You know it's something
Every
little once in a while
You take a chance to win
On a turning card
But it may be hard
We could be fooled on the merry-go-round
But i'm
trying to find
Something to believe in
To believe in
All the things they promised
You know they always lied
Chorus
I've been willing and strong all along
Through chilling times
In a sea of heartbreak
Where you give and take
I won't give in to promises
Until i find something to believe in
To believe in…
Hyperdrive
I never thought there were corners
in time
Till i was told to stand in one
One straight line head on into the other
Maybe standing in the corner looks like where it's got to come.
Let’s all pretend one wall is the past and one is the future
And i’ll just stand here like the present looking for a
Good place to run
Every fish that swims upstream now
that's a catch
Because the full mouth never wants to stop cooking.
The map may be flat, the globe may be patched
But the long line keeps right on hooking
Circles in the ring of fire, where do you go
On a night that is clear and warm?
Oh where do you go?
I never thought there were corners in time
Till i was told to stand in one
I've heard circles moving right through corners
And they don't even know they've been around and around before
Ringing, ringing against each other on a singing chain
Like a flying magnet hyperdrive has never seen any reason
To remain the same.
All because i felt it i believe it
There are things i've never seen that i believe
So i'm going to place my face right in the triangle door
Till i can move right on through instead of just standing here
Looking at the floor.
If it rains again tonight, i can
think light years ahead
Or i could push myself back a thousand years ago
As if i know i’ve been here before or if i am still to be born
I'm a slow loser, but i'm a fast learner
That much i know
Anyone can go
That much i know
Anyone can go
That much i know
Anyone can go.
"Young noblewoman riding by, pray tell me have you seen
